Life.........

It initially comes up as a surprise when u start enjoying it....

It often makes you happy, and sad for the same thing....

It drives you to think the best (yet unachievable), but expect the worst too....

It gives you the power to heal others when you yourself are wounded....

It shows you what you want and gives you what you need the most...

Still this mystery called life keeps you grounded !!!

Clueless...........

Often I doubt, did I choose the wrong path or the tracks got changed midway...

Often I feel, do I have that importance or its all temporary...

Often I think, what i wanted did I ever get it...

Often I question, when will i stop making the same mistakes each time...

Often I wonder, When Will I lead my own life...

where things will be governed the way i wish them........... 

My innermost fears.. DECODED...

Last night, it was a horrible account of all the things i have ever dreamt in life.. In a series of events, i discovered my hidden fears, most of them which i didnt know even exist.. Fear of losing someone, fear of failure, fear of isolation, fear of rejection and some more to make anyone mad.. It made me feel so helpless to see those events, as if its happening in real and I cant do much to overcome it.. It was all so apt that it clearly decoded somethings which are underplaying in my mind since long time now.. I thought discussing them and talking it out could be a solution to it but the more I think about it, the more I get engrossed in its complexity! I really dont know if these dreams have some real-life interpretation and inference, but it leaves you distressed and thinking about what life has in stores for you........

Written at 12.30 a.m, 3rd april 2009...

Wonder what a day you had, when you thought all your problems have ended and there's nothing that can come in the way of your dreams..You get more casual and take for granted that things will get your way now..

Just then, you get a knock that 'Hello, there is something known as GOD too' and yes, he'll always be there to show his presence by making things happen that you cant even imagine.. I am not criticising him even though i am the latest victim, just because i know that whatever god plans happens for our good only even if initially it doesnt seem so..

The 'only' good i can see is that the times like these make you realise that you are valued and lucky enough to have understanding people around you..

I am happy to be with such souls and i am keeping my fingers crossed to see what happens next... 

*sigh*