Life is crazy!

Finally after four months of fretting, frustation and nagging, I got what I was waiting for long... My joining date!  :)
It wasnt easy though, many road blocks hinted that it might not be my destiny..
And now that I am here, I really wish that I could get some more days to prepare and enjoy.. 
Such is life. once you get something you desire, you are left with a thought 'what next?'


I am equally excited for the new phase and sad because I'll miss these old days.. Kinda mixed emotions :Venturing into a whole new world with aspirations of success (something which I always wanted), while separating from my dear ones.. 
Change is on the cards now.. A little more responsibility, less time for family / friends, no more TP days..
But the best part of all : getting a slice of life in my own plate!
Time and destiny knows whats in store, good or bad but atleast I am getting to live my dream.. No feeling better than this happiness! 
:)

How life changes in an hour

yesterday...


11.45 am 


P  - The latest update from TPO is that we'll be called in the next batch now.. maybe january


Me  - hoping for gurgaon, we should get the benefit for waiting longer...


P - lets see.




1.00 pm 


P  - hey, aa gai joining? (In an elated voice, almost breathless)


Me - kaha se aa gayi yaar... remember what the TPO said !


P  - aa gayi hai, i just received a call asking to join on 11th dec bangalore.


Me - such jokes no longer interest me now, please!


P  - i am not kidding yaar, meri awaaz se aisa lagta hai kya!


Me  - okkk, congrats... ( with a deep relief)


P  - you'll get the call soon, stay glued to the phone... bye!






1.30 pm


I got the much awaited call and joining mail! 
:)
Life gives you the best when you expect the least!

Life ka plan....

Post diwali, life is seeming dull again! The same old anxiety of searching jobs and wait for the accy DOJ is back again! in between all of these , I got the 'shock' of my life today... Some regard it as an auspicious beginning...and all I have to say is..  "no comments"....

Well, I can only imagine a bulldozer crushing my dreams now...

With all the things I have encountered in the last few months, I can seriously make out that this was certainly not my  'life ka plan'...

Till now, I would have joined either Infy or Accy, staying independently and earning well too....enjoying with friends....discovering new cities through my camera....much more things like these that I always aspired in life!

But then thats god's game plan...you never get what you want, you always get what you needed the most! and that always remains a secret to us...

I am in a great dilemma as to what this new thing will add to my life... and whether I'll be left with any regrets abt it later....

Life is changing.....

Ever since we are born, we undergo a series of changes before we die.... Initially brought up at home with love and care, moving to school and then laying the foundations of our career and much more keeps us busy throughout!

The changes whether good or bad have a sole purpose, to show us the various shades of life... I can relate to it more now  since I am opposing the current change in life... College has sadly ended, so have the fun filled days, most of the friends busy with their own lives, Bro has moved out for his training! Unexpected things happening on the cards! There seems a sudden pause to all the good things earlier in life! Feelings of emptiness and loneliness are cropping up...

Next maybe my turn to move out of home.. Its amazing to realise that I always wanted this freedom but now that I am very close to it, I dont feel like clinching it!

My life is changing and I want to ask.......

Why???

Change....

Going through some old and school photographs made me realise so many things that night...

Those were indeed the best days of my life. All was so good and perfect. I really didnt know
'how the world exists outside'. I was really living in my 'happy and small world'.
Actually a lot has changed in these three years and the transformation (external and internal)
has been extremely learning. It can be really difficult to manage things going on inside you and outside in the world.
But its the external appearence that matters because the world is governed by that. I remember the time
when some students at school chanted 'Jassi jaisi koi nahin' whenever i passed by. I never felt
bad about it because according to it 'I was unique'.
The change is never planned but it happens because nothing remains static in this world.
The transition taught me loads about life, the people around. It gave me some good moments to boast
about and the worst ones too. It taught me that the more you can hide yourself, the more better you live.
Nobody is interested in you without a reason. Once the reason is out, even the people leave.
'Trust' is the most overrated thing in this world and the most easiest weapon to backstab people.
Even the emotions fool you.
It wasnt all that bad also because i experienced some of the greatest things in the world too... :)
Ultimately it has made me a stronger person and a bit bad too. As it is said that change is an inevitable
part of life, we have to respond to it else you may get vanished (synonymous to the darwin's natural selection theory, survival of the fittest).
But it has been fruitful in many ways. Just a part of growing up , i guess.

Its only Time that will tell what more lies in the stores......