My innermost fears.. DECODED...

Last night, it was a horrible account of all the things i have ever dreamt in life.. In a series of events, i discovered my hidden fears, most of them which i didnt know even exist.. Fear of losing someone, fear of failure, fear of isolation, fear of rejection and some more to make anyone mad.. It made me feel so helpless to see those events, as if its happening in real and I cant do much to overcome it.. It was all so apt that it clearly decoded somethings which are underplaying in my mind since long time now.. I thought discussing them and talking it out could be a solution to it but the more I think about it, the more I get engrossed in its complexity! I really dont know if these dreams have some real-life interpretation and inference, but it leaves you distressed and thinking about what life has in stores for you........

Written at 12.30 a.m, 3rd april 2009...

Wonder what a day you had, when you thought all your problems have ended and there's nothing that can come in the way of your dreams..You get more casual and take for granted that things will get your way now..

Just then, you get a knock that 'Hello, there is something known as GOD too' and yes, he'll always be there to show his presence by making things happen that you cant even imagine.. I am not criticising him even though i am the latest victim, just because i know that whatever god plans happens for our good only even if initially it doesnt seem so..

The 'only' good i can see is that the times like these make you realise that you are valued and lucky enough to have understanding people around you..

I am happy to be with such souls and i am keeping my fingers crossed to see what happens next... 

*sigh*

Prioritize

Ever wondered how the outside world looks from the window of your own thoughts. You probably never had time for this, because you were too occupied pacing up with things going around. It happens so many times that we linger unto things that are never meant to be, just in a hope that one day success will be ours. It triggers off great confusion  when we try to fit into the things of our life rather than fit the things according to our life. It provides joy which lasts temporarily because we get dependent on them. A simple solution is to 'prioritize'. Take up things as they come in to you, realising how much important they are in the long run. Be it love, family, career ; each holds a special place. Though, the main decision lies in ' how much importance we give to things and during what time'. Once you achieve this balance, all the hurdles disappear.It helps in achieving confidence and immense happiness, because you tend to open up to the world beyond your rigid thoughts.

So always accept what life gives you and line up the things the way they give you the most happiness !!!!

Treading on a path was never my choice....

leaving it, was mine !!

What I got and what I lost was nothing...

When I saw others in line!!

There's no reason to lose hope...

When you know, u can always try to shine !!!!!

Going on 22, single and loving it.....

If asked a question, are you single by choice or chance?? The most diplomatic answer would be "ofcourse by choice", even if it would have been by destiny. I wont get into that debate because that's notthe point and I totally respect what the answers would be...
Initially there was a point when this happened by chance and not by choice. Its a time when the things around you persuade you into what you don't believe in and you get carried away. But god always has a better option to put you back on the right track, through some way or the other.
Ofcourse, love is a beautiful feeling and it opens up all the gates that lead to happiness. But it should be worth the wait, not like : before you leave someone's hand, you are already holding another.. :D
Love is a pure thing which can never be expressed but only felt. Its a symbol of caring, understanding, sharing in a way which is very unique itself because its not everyday that you find someone to whom who can actually bare your soul.. And its a matter of great luck to find one...
Until then, singledom rocks because it gives you the freedom that even love doesn't... You can actually dream, live and enjoy things as an individual... Certainly because you wont get this time back, so make the most of it...
And sacrifice only when you truly feel the need to...!!!