Pieces of 'ME'

Sometimes it feels like a big loser, who just spent good years of life doing nothing....

Sometimes an achiever, when I look at the things I learnt !

Sometimes a big dose of emotions encompasses....

Sometimes the really lighter side surprises, that I myself havent unearthed...

Sometimes Too serious about rules and life.....

and sometimes seeking out chances to overcome them....

Calm, passionate while doing things which I always love to do...

And sometimes a wild bully if things dont work my way....

always fighting and running to attain things.....

and sometimes a silent drawback to get out from this race.....

Sometimes it feels great to be loved and cheered.....

and sometimes It feels beautiful to love and give....

Sometimes I cant stop speaking.....

and sometimes I wish if the other side could speak and I can listen silently.......

" Tujhme agar pyaas hai, baarish ka ghar bhi paas hai...

    Roke tujhe koi kyun bhalaa, sang sang tere aakash hai...

    Beh chal kahi, udd chal kahi...

    Dil khush jaha, teri toh manzil hai wahi...."

Sometimes we never get to know how far we get to the other end. It is actually difficult to imagine but things can always be worked in the direction we want.. There were always doubts and fears regarding the things I experienced but ultimately it added to my knowledge each time and made me more positive! It initially starts off on a different perspective and ends up differently too....I thought i could bring up a change in someone's life but it ended up changing my own, maybe for the better or maybe not, that the future will decide! Most of the times, I saw what happened and heard what the others had to say..without giving in more effort to what I wanted and how.. Its like having your own opinion but not letting it out and spending a lifetime thinking about as to whether it is right or wrong.. Barriers crop in when we are least sure about what we wish and often hesitate to work towards it... A countless number of things get left out in this race between what should be done and what not...

Its been ages now, that we come out of our shells and have a broader perspective about what we want and stand by our actions. Because ultimately its our life and we are responsible for it.. Nobody can carry its burden on their shoulders! Decide once upon things which will go with us in the long run in which you believe and stand by them forever..

and in case you get into trouble , god is always there to guide you..  silently listen to him!  

Life.........

It initially comes up as a surprise when u start enjoying it....

It often makes you happy, and sad for the same thing....

It drives you to think the best (yet unachievable), but expect the worst too....

It gives you the power to heal others when you yourself are wounded....

It shows you what you want and gives you what you need the most...

Still this mystery called life keeps you grounded !!!

Clueless...........

Often I doubt, did I choose the wrong path or the tracks got changed midway...

Often I feel, do I have that importance or its all temporary...

Often I think, what i wanted did I ever get it...

Often I question, when will i stop making the same mistakes each time...

Often I wonder, When Will I lead my own life...

where things will be governed the way i wish them........... 

My innermost fears.. DECODED...

Last night, it was a horrible account of all the things i have ever dreamt in life.. In a series of events, i discovered my hidden fears, most of them which i didnt know even exist.. Fear of losing someone, fear of failure, fear of isolation, fear of rejection and some more to make anyone mad.. It made me feel so helpless to see those events, as if its happening in real and I cant do much to overcome it.. It was all so apt that it clearly decoded somethings which are underplaying in my mind since long time now.. I thought discussing them and talking it out could be a solution to it but the more I think about it, the more I get engrossed in its complexity! I really dont know if these dreams have some real-life interpretation and inference, but it leaves you distressed and thinking about what life has in stores for you........